From Pain to Purpose: Sickle Cell Anemia

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From Pain to Purpose: Sickle Cell Anemia

2014: The Year of RELEASE!!

It has been a couple of months since I have blogged but sometimes God places you in a season of silence. That silence is needed in order to truly hear what God needs you to hear. Too often the voices in your life will drown out the voice of God. I realized that in the midst of my silent season God was aligning me with the destiny He laid out for my life. It could be nobody but God to open doors that I was not even seeking to be opened. That is what is so great about our God. He knows what we NEED while we often just focus on what we WANT!

As the opportunities became greater so did the pain in my life. When you have such a big calling it comes with great sacrifice. During what I thought was the worst time in my marriage I committed to giving God my full yes on the things He wanted me to do. I stopped running from Him and started running to Him. There were days where I did not understand the things He was asking of me. Every time I thought I had a clue I was way off from the thoughts God had brewing over my life. Nevertheless, I walked in obedience in the midst of the pain and confusion. I walked in blind faith believing that there was a purpose so much greater than this pain. It turns out I was right! 

It’s hard running a marriage ministry in the midst of the failure of your own marriage. It is even harder to have to walk in silence with some of the hurt when all you want to do is scream to the ones you love and tell them how bad you are hurting. Nonetheless, I survived through some of the worst storms a marriage could weather. God continued to birth me into the wife He needed me to be in the absence of everything I “thought” I needed to have in order to prove I was the wife God created me to be. It was not my wedding vows or a piece of paper but God who made me the wife I became. 

Through my greatest pain God birthed my purpose. He grew my ministry in ways I never expected. It has almost been a year since I started being an advocate for healthy God centered marriages. I cannot believe who I was then and who I am now. God did a new thing in me and because of my faithfulness to Him  I can reign in victory. The whole time God was restoring me and healing me. It was always about me from the beginning. When I came to that full revelation that is when God hit the release button for me!!! Many people were waiting for the new year to come to see God’s glory but God showed me His glory in advance. He gave me a glimpse of what is to come. He already started catapulting me into my next level.  For that I am grateful. 

My lesson learned in this pain is never step out of God’s will and try to create your own. The pain you will suffer is not worth it but His grace and mercy when you do is proof of His unconditional love! Many people want God to save their marriage when in reality God is only trying to save them. That is a revelation that many miss but when it gets revealed it is such a release when you walk in it. I am walking in that freedom. =)

Blog with you later. Love and hugs.