Fear Of Love...

I was going through old voice mails my husband left me before basic training and then watched some videos I had made him while he was in AIT. This one stood out to me! It actually made me cry all over again. I came with so much emotional trauma and baggage, two children, and a host of illnesses, on top of having a sick child. Guess what? He STILL chose to love me as well as them like we were flawless creatures in his eyes. Funny things is, that is exactly the way God loves us. I think sometimes we forget where the love started at when our relationships progress over time. We forget how in love we were and how special that person made us feel. I made this video when we were just boyfriend and girlfriend and a year and a half later we are married. Just reached our one year of marriage mark last weekend.

The one thing I learned about marriage is you have to put in three times the work maybe even more than you did when you were just dating. It is so easy to get caught up in the every day dealings of life that you stop appreciating who you fell in love with. Those simple words like, "I appreciate you", "I need you", "I love you", "I miss you", and even a simple "Thank you" gets tossed to the side. Although we may know how our other half feels it is also very important for it to be heard. It's the only way to keep the positive and good things alive in your relationship.

However, the most important factor is God above! Without God in the center of your life and your relationship it will only get harder. It's better to just get it right from the beginning so we don't have to run to God to save our relationships after the fact! That is a lesson that hurts worse when it is learned the hard way. Love is God because God is the definition of Love and the Creator of Love! How wonderful is that? To be able to love like God? Of course, as humans we will fall short because we are not perfect like God is. Nevertheless, we can still be inspired to love like Him.

I am so glad I went back and watched these videos. They made me laugh a lot and this one made me cry. I am thinking of going back and reading the letters he wrote as well while he was in training because it keeps that love fresh! I don't ever want to forget what that feels like because that is the best feeling of love I have ever experienced outside of God! You can see that all over my face that I was undoubtedly in love. I remember falling in love over and over again because he is always with new surprises, new experiences, I was always being amazed by him. I don't want to lose that greatness and substance. This had to be God reminding me to continue to appreciate this very man I was thanking Him for in this video. God knows how to get my attention! ; ) I'm ecstatic right now yall....LOL

I've married such an intelligent, handsome, wonderful man who loves and sacrifices for me on so many levels. He never likes to see me cry or sad and when it's all said and done he continues to strive to make me happy even when I am getting on his nerves...Ha! Now that is what you call love right?  

On that note thank you for reading. TTYL Smooches...Muah!!!

P.S. I think I am starting to get the hang of this blogging. I think I like it. : )