Tuesday, March 26, 2013

March 26, 2010


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Three years ago today I stepped off a plane at La Guardia airport in New York. It was my first time ever getting on a plane and it was the first fear I truly conquered of flying. I had recently buried my grandmother a couple of weeks prior. It was the hardest loss I have ever encountered. My spiritual backbone was no more but God had provided me a new one as she was leaving. I didn’t know at the time that this person would turn out to be the man I married. I made sure to have a window seat because if the plane was going to crash I wanted to see it! lol However, as the plane ascended into the air it looked like peace in heaven. I felt so at peace and I was ready to see what was in store for me. I remember stepping off the plane and my nerves were a wreck. I was apprehensive of the weekend that lied ahead of me. The moment I walked out the airport I saw my boyfriend at the time getting out the cab . It was like whoa! What a beautiful creation of God he was to me and his smile seemed brighter than the sun. When I say he spoiled me in every way he could, he really did! I felt like a Queen and I was in awe of the amazing heart inside of him. We were up and down Manhattan the whole weekend and I fell in love with New York. While falling in love with New York I said to myself that this is the man I want to give my love as well as my heart to and I did just that. I chose to love the man who made me feel like his Queen.

He took me to my first play. We went to see Lion King and until this day every time I feel really bad I think about that day and the play. I remember when he was in training with the military he would write in his letters to think of that day and remember we would have more of those days. He kept to that promise because we did have more of those days every chance he had. So, much has changed from those happy days of parading around New York. A lot has been lost and a lot of pain has developed over the years, Nevertheless, every time I think of New York I will see our love manifested. Every time I feel like it’s too much to bear I will see all the great things that came out of the man God brought to me. I will always love New york and I will always love my husband for this reason. He opened my life to a whole new world that I could have only seen through his eyes.

He loved me in spite of my brokenness and even when that same brokenness hurt him he tried with everything in him to love me with everything he had. However, only God could truly love my hurt away. Only God could truly make me whole again and I must say I love being this whole woman I am today! I love that God showed me my enemy, myself! Above all these things I am glad that God taught me how to love the right way. Now, I pour out that love every chance I get. Love is the most beautiful gift we can give anybody and marriage is such a privilege. I honor and respect the things God has placed inside of me and around me. God sent such an overflow of His love into my heart and it continues to spill over in every inch of my being. I thank God for my husband because of all the good he has brought into my life. I pray God overflows his own heart with this kind of love. It’s better than anything I could ever give him.
When I think of today my eyes begin to water because today reminds me of the start of something that beautifully changed my life and my heart forever…..I will call today my anniversary of “choosing to” love!!! =)

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